He Loves Me!
Posted on May 29, 2009
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Last weekend was the most amazing weekend of my life but before we get into that lets back up a little. On December 12, 2008 in the blog post 21 Days Till I Know, I introduced Aaron to you and how I felt when I first met him. Than on January 9th, I wrote about my Heart Break. I didn’t write about Aaron after that but the trust is, it wasn’t over.
It took me a couple of weeks to get over the sting of what happened January 3rd/4th but I was seriously still bothered by it. I fell in love with Aaron the moment I saw him and my gut told me he was the one for me. How could my gut have been so wrong? That question started haunting me. The more I asked the question – the more my gut yelled out at me that I hadn’t been wrong.
I reached back out to Aaron in February sometime and we embarked on a friendship. We found a new freedom to be ourselves and for me to help him through our friendship. He started to let me in. The entire time I was clear with him that I still wanted a relationship with him and he was clear with me that he still wasn’t ready for a relationship.
In April I was starting to drive myself crazy going back and forth with my needs to have more from him; with my needs for him to open up more to me. We had one conversation where he angered me so much that I unleashed a lot of what I wanted to say to him. He quickly snapped back and started opening up. Around that same time he let me know that he was coming to New Orleans and bringing his mom with him.
When he arrived to NOLA on May 15th at 1240am, got of the car and gave me a hug; I saw a spark and smile in his eyes that I had expected to see back in January. I played it real cool (of course).
We got closer and closer throughout the weekend. He left New Orleans with the knowledge that we do belong together. I was blissfully happy after he left but I was clueless about how much he had finally realized. It didn’t take long though for me to find out because Aaron opened up to me and began sharing his feeling for me and with me.
I drove to Daytona Beach for Memorial weekend to be with him again…and that is when I got to experience the most amazing weekend of my life. Being with Aaron is one of the most natural, comforting, pleasant, exciting and fun time.
I grew to learn and took the time to discover exactly what I wanted in a man and specifically what I wanted my relationship to be like – being with Aaron is all of that and more. We laughed so much, opened up to each other, laughed some more, and explored who each of us is and who we are together. I also felt right at home with his family. Everything about us is completely natural. It flows perfectly.
The man I knew Aaron was when I laid eyes on him – is exactly the man he is plus more. He’s amazing, fabulous, sweet, caring, funny, genuine, intelligent, modest, easy going, intense, driven, ambitious, and passionate. He’s my equal, he holds the ability to push me, motivate me, and inspire me. Actually, he already does all of that; we do that for each other. I truly admire him. He has the capacity to achieve anything he sets his mind to do and there is much he wants to do accomplish.
He makes me feel like the luckiest, most beautiful, sexiest, cherished and appreciated woman alive. He gives me all the precious gifts of love, admiration and care I have been aching for and wanting while not undermining the strong, independent will I possess. He is not threatened by me at all. Our integrations are effortless – by that I mean the fact that we both have strong, alpha personalities – our personalities melt together and we float across the dance floor completely in step.
He sent me an email earlier this week after reading the post I wrote April 5th – Consciousness Catching up to My Unconsciousness.
What I mentioned before when we chatted this morning, it had to do with an article you wrote, “Consciousness Catching up to the Unconsciousness”. I know I’ve apologized already for what I did but I’ve felt the need to tell you again. It hurts me to know I made you feel that way. To know I did that to my soulmate, my love, my best friend – you deserve to hear another true, sincere apology.
Having you in my life now is so refreshing and exciting. You make me want to open up and find my true self, the one’s who’s been hiding for years. The best part about it all, as I do this you’ll be right there by my side seeing me experience these new things.
You are such an amazing woman and such a huge part of my life. I hope you were able to see that in my eyes and in my heart this past weekend…just how much I love you.
I love you babe, with all my heart.
Aaron
He is on his way back to New Orleans to be with me again this weekend. We went from saying our goodbyes last weekend, to finding a way to spend at least one last night together, to him coming to spend another few days with me. You could say that we don’t want to be apart from each other!!
I’ve been on cloud nine for the last three weeks. I am his, and he is mine. We’re waiting for him to get a job offer in New Orleans at which point he’ll move here with me and we’ll move in together.
Some folks have asked “Isn’t it moving kinda fast between you two?” I reply, if by kinda fast you mean my falling in love with him within the first ten minutes of knowing him than Yes, but if you mean him moving here to be with me – definitely not; I’ve been waiting over a year for that!!!
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Nice! Very happy for you both! Speaking from a the pov of a “guy” I can tell you…we’re kind of clueless sometimes; but when we finally figure it out we typically do okay.
Makes me think back on something the Mrs said to me way back when, something to the effect of ‘I’ve know, I’ve just been waiting for you to figure it out.’ :0)